Since the car test did not go smoothly, and I lived in an apartment on the roadside, the cars going back and forth at night often wandered around. The whole person is infected with a melancholy card. I feel like I can’t control my thoughts at all, and my mind never knows what I want, and I feel scared.
Xiao Jiang is a very good friend I played with in Guangzhou and a partner of my second company.At that time, I remember very clearly that the two of us took the subway and changed the bus. At the bus stop, we would sit there and wait for the bus. The whole person seemed to be out of control. I finally realized why people with severe depression chose to commit suicide. On the top of the mountain, I bought a Guanyin Bodhisattva pendant in the Guanyin Bodhisattva lotus dish. I still wear it by my side so far.When I was taking pictures and climbing at the foot of the mountain, I controlled myself not to think about it, but I could n’t keep thinking about it all the time. I worshiped Guanyin Bodhisattva and read Amitabha. I feel that Bodhisattva inspired me. I kept reading this Amitabha when I was going down the mountain, and my heart slowly calmed down, as if all my attention was on Amitabha.From that day on, I felt that Bodhisattva was favored. When I came back, I told myself that no matter what happened, I decided that I could not give up my life first. This is a commitment to myself. Thank you Xiaojiang for your companionship, and thank you for your inspiration.🙏